It's so odd with this pregnancy... I just don't feel overly pregnant! The time is sort of flying by. It must be because I have a toddler to take care of and now a little business out of my home to run. The pregnancy isn't my main focus.
I have to say, that is kind of a relief. Before, I felt so much pressure to get through each week because there wasn't much else for me to focus on... there was a lot more time for me to worry about the possibility of something going wrong. It was a lot scarier then. Now I just don't have the option to worry because I have other things to think about.
In a way, I feel bad for this baby, because he/she is already taking a backseat to Sylvan and whatever else is holding our attention... but at the same time, I think it is healthier for kids to not feel like the main focus. Today's parenting is so child-focused that kids are just getting spoiled by all the fuss. It's a good reminder for me to learn to not fuss over Sylvan as much.
Another thing is I get the sense that this baby is pretty chill. I know it's kind of a cliche to say that about your second baby, and it may be true for a lot of people, but I just get that feeling. I hope it's true, anyway :)
This past week was EPIC for me, in a terrible, awful way. I've been getting some pretty intense 'morning sickness' (read: ALL DAY FRIGGIN' NAUSEA) with this pregnancy, and it's been a struggle to cope, as I have Sylvan to take care of and other stuff to do. I've been taking Gravol occasionally which has really helped. On Monday, I started out in the morning feeling my usual twinge of nausea, and as the day went on it only seemed to get worse. I took Gravol in the afternoon thinking it would do the trick but it didn't do anything. By the time Luke got home from work around 5:00, I needed to throw up. At this point I still thought it was just pregnancy nausea. After we put Sylvan to bed around 7:00, my vomiting got worse... and frequent. Every 20 minutes. I began to realize it was probably something else, not just pregnancy nausea. I ended up having to get up to throw up every 20 minutes to half an hour ALL NIGHT LONG. Luke was able to stay home from work the next day (thank GOD) and the vomiting continued. It was unspeakably awful. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. The nausea was just so intense, and barely subsided each time I had to vomit. Finally around 5:00, basically 24 hours to the minute, my poor exhausted body let go and the nausea began to ease. I was obviously completely spent, but it was such an amazing feeling to finally feel better again. I actually felt physically euphoric... very odd. The next day I felt weak and I definitely had to take it easy, but it was basically back to normal for me. My main worry was that Luke and Sylvan would get sick but it'll be Friday tomorrow and so far so good. I don't know how I would have dealt with it if Sylvan had gotten sick... it really was the absolute WORST feeling ever, and I can't imagine knowing exactly how your baby feels and being unable to help him.
Anyway, the week got a lot better after that was dealt with... and now I'm extra grateful to feel healthy! Another thing - I haven't had much morning sickness at all since then. Maybe my body decided to get it ALL over with in 24 hours? :)
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